"Say Something I'm Giving Up On You" - Great Big World
Great Big World said it the best in their song Say Something:
Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'll be the one, if you want me to
Anywhere I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you
And I am feeling so small
It was over my head
I know nothing at all
And I will stumble & fall
I'm still learning to love
Just starting to crawl
Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
Anywhere I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you
And I will swallow my pride
You're the one that I love
And I'm saying goodbye
I really liked Kangta, but the days leading up to my break up I was not feeling so great about him.
So, after Valentine's day I did not hear from him, which was unusual because up until that point he was the one who called me everyday! So I called him on the Wednesday (Valentines Day was on Saturday), but he couldn't talk because he was sick (again!). He told me he would call me the next day, but didn't. So then I started to panic, thinking he was at the hospital?! Something must've happened! I called him on Friday nothing, Saturday I texted nothing, so I told him I'm going to go by his house if he doesn't respond. He then emails me and tells me he forgot his phone in Mississauga and he was in Sarina doing a job.
Oh yeah, on Valentines day he told me he quit his job.. I was impressed, I thought he would be too chicken shit to do it. But at that point it had already been 3 weeks.
Anyways, he said he would call me once he got his phone.. He did. short conversion, he seemed to be distracted. I knew he was going to London, so I told him to call me when he got back to Mississauga, nothing. So on Sunday, March 1st 2 weeks after Valentines day, I was waiting for the bus to come downtown, and guess who drives by?! So, he picked me up and we were talking like nothing had happen. But again like always he was just complaining about his job. He dropped me off at the subway station because he was running late for dinner at his new boss' house.
That was the last time I saw him. He wrote me two emails after that. He emailed me to let me know he had lost his phone, then he emailed me to let me know he got a sim card and was using his coworker's phone. He said his phone was being shipped to his house. A week later, I still didn't hear from him, so I pulled a stalker move. I called him from a pay phone.. and his phone rang, which meant he had a phone and that it was on. The very next day I called him again from my cellphone, his cellphone rang, but he didn't pick up, so I broke up with him through his voicemail. I said, "I see you a phone, thank you for calling, texting, and or emailing me. I guess in your head we already broke up, so why don't we make it official................" I was trying so hard not to say, "If you want to talk about it, call me" So, before I can say that I hung up. It was TOTALLY HIM and DEFINITELY NOT ME!
Since the day he dropped me off to the days following, I had dreams about me breaking up with him. I guess that's why I'm not so devastated. I wrote him an email everyday to see how he was doing. I know it's kind of stalkerish, but he once accused me of being a bad girlfriend for not bringing him food at one of his job sites. I did what I could and I tried my best, but he was just an ass, wrapped in a pretty bow.
I'm disappointed this guy wasn't one of the good guys, but I'm more disappointed at myself thinking I was going to marry this guy. I think I wanted a fairy tale story sooo badly that I had let this relationship go longer than it should have. I still have not heard back from him.
There is more to this story, maybe one day I will write more about it. But until then I must move on my next "future husband"!
Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'll be the one, if you want me to
Anywhere I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you
And I am feeling so small
It was over my head
I know nothing at all
And I will stumble & fall
I'm still learning to love
Just starting to crawl
Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
Anywhere I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you
And I will swallow my pride
You're the one that I love
And I'm saying goodbye
I really liked Kangta, but the days leading up to my break up I was not feeling so great about him.
So, after Valentine's day I did not hear from him, which was unusual because up until that point he was the one who called me everyday! So I called him on the Wednesday (Valentines Day was on Saturday), but he couldn't talk because he was sick (again!). He told me he would call me the next day, but didn't. So then I started to panic, thinking he was at the hospital?! Something must've happened! I called him on Friday nothing, Saturday I texted nothing, so I told him I'm going to go by his house if he doesn't respond. He then emails me and tells me he forgot his phone in Mississauga and he was in Sarina doing a job.
Oh yeah, on Valentines day he told me he quit his job.. I was impressed, I thought he would be too chicken shit to do it. But at that point it had already been 3 weeks.
Anyways, he said he would call me once he got his phone.. He did. short conversion, he seemed to be distracted. I knew he was going to London, so I told him to call me when he got back to Mississauga, nothing. So on Sunday, March 1st 2 weeks after Valentines day, I was waiting for the bus to come downtown, and guess who drives by?! So, he picked me up and we were talking like nothing had happen. But again like always he was just complaining about his job. He dropped me off at the subway station because he was running late for dinner at his new boss' house.
That was the last time I saw him. He wrote me two emails after that. He emailed me to let me know he had lost his phone, then he emailed me to let me know he got a sim card and was using his coworker's phone. He said his phone was being shipped to his house. A week later, I still didn't hear from him, so I pulled a stalker move. I called him from a pay phone.. and his phone rang, which meant he had a phone and that it was on. The very next day I called him again from my cellphone, his cellphone rang, but he didn't pick up, so I broke up with him through his voicemail. I said, "I see you a phone, thank you for calling, texting, and or emailing me. I guess in your head we already broke up, so why don't we make it official................" I was trying so hard not to say, "If you want to talk about it, call me" So, before I can say that I hung up. It was TOTALLY HIM and DEFINITELY NOT ME!
Since the day he dropped me off to the days following, I had dreams about me breaking up with him. I guess that's why I'm not so devastated. I wrote him an email everyday to see how he was doing. I know it's kind of stalkerish, but he once accused me of being a bad girlfriend for not bringing him food at one of his job sites. I did what I could and I tried my best, but he was just an ass, wrapped in a pretty bow.
I'm disappointed this guy wasn't one of the good guys, but I'm more disappointed at myself thinking I was going to marry this guy. I think I wanted a fairy tale story sooo badly that I had let this relationship go longer than it should have. I still have not heard back from him.
There is more to this story, maybe one day I will write more about it. But until then I must move on my next "future husband"!
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